Loving, Loving, Loving

Dear Readers,I am in a better place today.I went to out to dinner with some special people, and had a lovely time.I looked great in my hot, black dress! LOLI couldn't hear all that well with my new implant, but I didn't get all wigged out about it.I didn't want to drink.Thank goodness, I was in a good … Continue reading Loving, Loving, Loving →

Laughing is Better!

Dear Readers,I am in a strange pattern of sleeping until 10:00 am. By the time I get my body into gear, it's almost noon! YIKES! Then I'm not tired until 2:00 am!Now in my defense, it is cold, dark, and we have had no sun for about 3 weeks. Oh, and I am retired with no kids.I also … Continue reading Laughing is Better! →

15 Weeks or 106 Days

Dear Readers,I kind of like counting days for now. It's almost like having a little mini-celebration every day!I slept until 11:00 today. YIKES!My Loved One calls me a Koala! LOL (They sleep up to 20 hours a day.)I have been struggling over my post. I can't seem to get my thoughts in any order.Then I … Continue reading 15 Weeks or 106 Days →

My First Sober Dream!

Dear Readers,Several nights ago, I had a dream about being sober. It was my first one ever! I thought it was cool.I don't remember all of it, but I was meeting a young woman who wanted to stop drinking. We were meeting in a fancy mall here in my city. When I got there, she … Continue reading My First Sober Dream! →

Change the Story

Dear Readers,Today I had lunch with a dear friend. I noticed I was telling her one of my "grievance" stories. This was a story where I felt hurt by someone. I have several grievance stories I keep alive by telling and retelling them to myself or anyone who will listen. Now after I tell her this story, I … Continue reading Change the Story →

100 Days and Still Counting!

Dear Readers,If there is one message I want to share, it is one of HOPE. No matter how many times I stopped drinking and started again, I NEVER GAVE UP. There were times I felt utterly hopeless, to be sure, but when those feelings passed, I committed myself to stop drinking again.I want to carry this message in my … Continue reading 100 Days and Still Counting! →

99 Days Of…

Dear Readers,Here's a short song for you!(Sing to the tune of 99 Bottles of Beer on the Wall.)99 Days of No Bottles of Wine99 days of no bottles of wine,99 days of no bottles,I took them down,Smashed 'em on the ground,99 days of no bottles of wine!(No glasses of wine either.)HA!Who says sober isn't funny. … Continue reading 99 Days Of… →

Finding Light Around The World

Dear Readers,In December, darkness comes so soon. Gray days haunt me. I run around the house turning on EVERY light! It's the only way I can cope with my depression and low energy, without moving to the Southwest. (LOL) Drinking was one way I tried to cope with dark days, dark thoughts, and dark feelings. As I sit here … Continue reading Finding Light Around The World →

A Lot Of NOISE

Dear Readers,I am still learning how "hear" with my new cochlear implant. Much of what I hear still sounds like noise! Music especially, is hard for me to understand. To re-train my brain, I have been listening to music non-stop and it slowly is making some sense to me. Really, that is the same way I am learning … Continue reading A Lot Of NOISE →

PIG

Dear Readers,I read this someplace on-line: It's called theProblem ofImmediateGratification(PIG)LOLWhen I was drinking, I couldn't wait for a drink. "I need wine and I need it now!" Like a little kid throwing a tantrum. If I couldn't get it, I'd sometimes sulk. If we were out shopping, I would want to stop for a drink in the … Continue reading PIG →