Dear Reader,I was thinking that,Now that I've come this far,Struggled this much,Would I want to Do this again?I think not!This is another tool,In my toolbox.Simply,I don't want to go through this again.Once was enough.Now, as I've said before,I can't think of not drinkingForever.Throws me into a Panic.But I can think of not drinking,For just a little while longer.Then I … Continue reading Who Wants To Do THIS Again?
Feel Better FAST!
Dear Readers,I am realizing That it takes the bodyAnd the mind,A long time to HealFrom drinking too much.I read that it takes time,But patience is notIn my nature.(Learning!)Now that I have been soberFor over 2 months,I am starting to Feel and see the changes.Not giant changes,But little ones.Like having a little more energy toTry a new skill, hobby,Walk … Continue reading Feel Better FAST!
From Music to Cookies
Dear Readers,I had an implant operation so I will be able to hear one day.But I had to give up my music lessons.For now.We will see what happens,When I get my processor.Maybe I will be able to play, sing,And hear my guitar and voice,Maybe I won't.I cried. And then, I decided to make cookies.I haven't made … Continue reading From Music to Cookies
70 Days and New Thoughts
Dear Readers,As I think overThese last 70 days,Part of my growth,Has been in throwing away,Old, limiting thoughts.Those were the thoughts ofI can't.Poor me.I can't take this anymore.I don't have enough.No one likes me.I need more.This is too hard.I'm bored.Poor me again!Now I will still have these thoughts,From time to time, As I am only human.But it … Continue reading 70 Days and New Thoughts
Back to My Roots
Dear Readers,When I was younger, I loved riding my bike.Pure freedom.I walked to concerts,My boyfriends' houses,Downtown.I never stopped myselfWith thoughts ofI can't Or I don't feel like it.Drinking stopped thatFreedom.Instead it bottled me up,Constrained me.It lied to me and said,"I am your freedom."Yes, I went walking,To yoga, biking,But the quality was not the same.Walking with my Loved One,Was … Continue reading Back to My Roots
Drinking Depressed OR Depressed Drinking?
Dear Readers,Having to go through a Major life change,With a new way of hearingComing my way,I can not imagineThe state I'd be inIf I was drinking.YIKES!!!Even if I was only drinkingA little bit,I would getVery depressed.I had problems with depression beforeMy drinking became worse,But the difference is amazing.Now, I have "normal" depression.(As my Loved One says, everyone … Continue reading Drinking Depressed OR Depressed Drinking?
Friday Musings
Dear Readers,Today I am A little bit of this,And a little bit of that.Or as my Loved One says,Normal.Sometimes, I don't want to beNormal.Sounds boring.When I was teaching,I think I loved to beIn front of the room,And pretend I was a Star.(The kids of course had a different idea! LOL)Now wanting to be the best, The brightest,The shiniest,The … Continue reading Friday Musings
It Really IS Better
Dear Readers,I must admit,My life is betterWithout drinking.Never thought in a million years,I could see this,Feel this,Grasp this.It alluded me for years.Life without wine?A martini?No life at all.And that's the lie.For me.Now that my eyes,Are little wider opened,I am in awe of the joyThat surrounds meWhen I'm not blurred overBy alcohol.It's not that I drank every day.I … Continue reading It Really IS Better
Tough Times
Dear Readers,These are tough timesFor me.As I deal with the Pain and loss,I ask myself,How do I cope?Can't go back.Won't drink.(Don't feel like it, thank goodness.)Right now,Words escape me.Maybe later.
Not a Drop in 60 Days
Dear Readers,How did this happen?I have no idea how I got to 60 days,And yet,Here I am.If I am not writing As clearly as I could,Please forgive me,As I am recoveringFrom my operation.Having an operation,Does keep you from feeling like drinking,But I wouldn't recommend it! :)However, the day before my Surgery, my Evil Little Liar VoiceWhispered.It told me, … Continue reading Not a Drop in 60 Days
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