Dear Readers,I am still learning how "hear" with my new cochlear implant. Much of what I hear still sounds like noise! Music especially, is hard for me to understand. To re-train my brain, I have been listening to music non-stop and it slowly is making some sense to me. Really, that is the same way I am learning … Continue reading A Lot Of NOISE
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PIG
Dear Readers,I read this someplace on-line: It's called theProblem ofImmediateGratification(PIG)LOLWhen I was drinking, I couldn't wait for a drink. "I need wine and I need it now!" Like a little kid throwing a tantrum. If I couldn't get it, I'd sometimes sulk. If we were out shopping, I would want to stop for a drink in the … Continue reading PIG
No Better Gift
Dear Readers,There is only one, true gift to give myself, and that is being sober. Without that I really have nothing. It is only with this gift that I can find joy in life. I can go to yoga, go for a walk, and take pictures of the snow-covered park.I can sit in my beautiful city, … Continue reading No Better Gift
Me Making Me Laugh!
Dear Readers,Sometimes I think I am so funny! (My Loved One just doesn't always think so. LOL) That's okay. I think a person must make themselves laugh. As I go through my day, I think of things in a strange way, my way, and in doing so, I am happy.On this journey of learning who I am, without numbing myself with alcohol, … Continue reading Me Making Me Laugh!
Short and Sweet
Dear Readers,My Loved One and I went for our walk tonight, in the park by our house, hoping to hear some owls. While we are walking and talking about our day, he stops and says, "Hear that?" It took me several times, but then I heard it. Coyote barking. Now some people remember their baby's first … Continue reading Short and Sweet
Acceptance
Dear Readers,I am on a roll here, using complete sentences again. I did find it easier to read my own post. As I struggle to learn how to hear with my implant devices, I find I am fighting against the devices and myself. I waver between being frustrated and angry, and acceptance. My implant processors (what I wear on my head) … Continue reading Acceptance
Party Time!
Dear Readers,I am going to write in actual sentences today! (HA) It's easier to say what I want in a regular paragraph or two, and I feel lazy today. Got my pj's on, sitting around with my Loved One. Had pumpkin pie for breakfast and of course, drinking my favorite beverage, coffee!I am going to be sober through this holiday season, for the … Continue reading Party Time!
Thanksgiving Everyday
Dear Readers,How much is enough?Do I have enough food and clean water?A warm, safe place to live?Do I have the loveOf family and friends?Do I have enough to wear?(Well, BESIDES shoes and boots!)Electronic toys?Furniture?Do I have enough money?A way to get around?Hot water?Enough support?It is important for meTo come from a placeOf all that I have,A … Continue reading Thanksgiving Everyday
Self Care
Dear Readers,People always say,"Take care of yourself".I know I need to,Exercise,Eat Right,Get enough sleep.But what else?To go deeper into self care means,Being creative,Using my talents,Prayer,Mediation.These are the thingsI forgot all about,When I was workingToo hard.Self care is vital toStaying sober.If I am neglecting My spirit,Drinking becomes The only way I try to take care.By taking the timeTo take … Continue reading Self Care
Feel The Fear, But Do It Anyway!!
Dear Reader,I saw this someplace,A book,A post,And how true it isFor me.I am so much strongerThan I think!Everyone elseCan see my strength.It is time for me to see it.The funny thing is,I do the scary things,Just yelling and screamingThe whole time!LOLMakes me feel better.(My Loved One has to suffer, however!)When I first tried to get sober,It was … Continue reading Feel The Fear, But Do It Anyway!!
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