Dear Readers,I had a really heart-warming talk yesterdayWith a great person.I was reminded about all the things I triedTo slow down my drinking.Only drink at home.Only drink at parties.Only drink 2 glasses.Only drink with other people.Only drink beer.Only drink with husband.Only drink after 3pm.Only drink when eating food.Well, for ME that did not work.There was never, … Continue reading Just Have One Bottle of Wine (or Moderation)
Bad List
Dear Readers,One tool I am using to help me,Is what I call my bad list.I keep this in my car, NOT to shame myself,But just to see what REALLY happens when I drink.My bad list goes something like this:Drinking Makes Me:SloppySlurryFatDepressedCryingA liarA hiderSneakyWaste MoneyShakeWaste my talentsArgue with Dear HubbyLazyStupidLonelyIs this REALLY what I want?
30 Days
Dear Readers,This is my 30th day of not drinking.Most days are going better than I thought!My cravings are not nearly as strong.Don't know if I can keep this up,But I am sure going to try forA while more.I want 100 days!I want peace of mind.
Sat. Dinner Blues
Dear Readers,Went out for dinner Saturday night with other people.Everyone was ordering wine and martinis (my favorites).That was ok, but then they kept TALKING about how great it all was.Grrrrr.My hubby and I are sitting there with our non-alcoholic drinks.The waiter is making fun of me not-drinking. (He wasn't mean.)Grrrrr.Well, for a little while I felt sorry … Continue reading Sat. Dinner Blues
My Evil Little Liar Voice
Dear Readers,I have a LOT to say today.I hope it helps someone!My Evil Little Liar Voice wants me to thinkthat drinking is going to make everything good.That all the pain will go away.That I will feel pretty.That ALL I need is one drink.Just one won't hurt.He (or she) is a LIAR!That's why I yell back.If I … Continue reading My Evil Little Liar Voice
Yelling Helps
Dear Readers,One thing that has really helped me with my cravings,Is YELLING at them.I can thank a blogger named Belle (Tired of Thinking About Drinking)and a women in Women For Sobriety for helping me.Belle calls it Wolfie.I sometimes call it my Evil Little Liar Self.My Addict Brain.So, this is how it works.When I have a … Continue reading Yelling Helps
Never Give Up
Dear Readers,My fall into drinking came slowly,And my climb out has been slow,With many ups and downs.However,My motto has always been,Never Give Up.Ever.Last November is when I started to give up drinking…again.I could go a week, then I gave in.However, I was searching for anybody, anything that could help me.I will start posting some of the … Continue reading Never Give Up
My Living Angels
Dear Readers,I am always AMAZED at all the people who are willing to give of their timeand loveto help me.I call these people My Living Angels.I am ever so grateful for their kindness!Who are these people?My dear husbandMy dear familyMy dear friendsMy dear Women for Sobriety friendsMy dear AA friendsMy dear yoga teachersMy dear yoga fellow learnersMy … Continue reading My Living Angels
My Slide Into Obliviation
Dear Readers,When I was younger, I loved drinking wine.It was so fun and romantic.Without me knowing it,It was starting to take over my life.I only wanted to go to places that had wine.I had to have pre-drinks BEFORE a party.Even going out on a date night with husband, I needed a drink.Then, it seemed overnight, I … Continue reading My Slide Into Obliviation
Yes, Life is Still Fun!I
Dear Readers,In my quest to have long-term sobriety,I've heard people tell me, (I used to say this myself),"Oh, life can't be fun without drinking!What will you do when EVERYONE is drinking.You'll be boring."What a big, fat lie.For me,life has become better and way more fun!Even I can't believe it!I am waking up with energy.I am getting to … Continue reading Yes, Life is Still Fun!I
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