It has been a long, long, time since I last wrote! Yikes! No excuses. Just stopped for a break, and never came back. I really don’t have much to say any more, and I feel my creative poems and thinking really dried up. I also have been just distracting myself with mobile games. Trying to decide if I want to give them up for a month.
I hope you all are well. I really mean that. Some of you are friends with me on IG, and if you want to connect, email me, at firstname.lastname@example.org.
Summer has been mainly normal. Mr. UT and I had some fun trips, are taking care of my 96 year old mother, who is in an assisted living home, still go for our daily walks, and we volunteer.
I did have several family members visit, which was wonderful.
What was NOT wonderful was a surprise visit from my nasty friend, depression.
My depression had been well managed for so long, I was very surprised when I found myself crying, magnifying feelings, and unable to cope with some simple tasks.
I wrote this poem as I was struggling with depression for a month. Very depressing poem, and just reading it makes me want to hold this Wendy in my heart!
Surrounded by fog lit skies,
I stumble to find sunny joy,
Only to grasp loneliness,
I sneak back into the gloom.
Depression forced me to go back to gratitude, and remember how many other people in the world suffer from this, so I sent love to all of them. We are not alone.
The depression passed. I just kept moving, walking, doing something, even little things, and one day, I woke up and felt my regular normal self.
One day, hiking in a lovely county park, I was looking for photos to take, high on coffee, gabbing with Mr. UT, and smack! Tripped over a root and fell flat on my face, dust in my mouth, my cochlear implants flying off! After I quit whimpering, and pulled myself together, I knew something was wrong with my arm.
Sure enough, I found out I had fractured an elbow bone. Good news, no surgery needed! Just wear my brace and physical therapy for 6 weeks.
The last bit of extraordinary news is Mr. UT and I have been married for 45 years! We dated steady from 11th grade of high school until we finished college, so really we’ve been together for 52 years. LOL
(Oh, and we both got a year older this summer. Not sure about this news!)
I’m coming up to 7 years sober soon, more good news!
Mr. UT has kept me laughing though thick and thin. I can take myself way too seriously!
With My Nurse Mr. UT,
On Day one 2545,