The one thing I have learned in recovery and therapy, is that I cannot be a very giving person when I am treating myself with anger.
I have written about being angry at my body and being very hard on myself, before.
I have made wonderful strides in this area, and now I am much nicer to myself.
I know I am human, and can only do what I can.
I know I will make mistakes.
It took a lot of self talk and reading to learn to do this. A good therapist helped, as well as listening to other people at meetings.
The kinder I am to myself, I find I extend that kindness to other people.
We are all humans.
|On Our Thanksgiving Walk|
I now realize everyone suffers in life. Everyone makes mistakes.
When I judge myself less, I find myself judging other people less.
I had to learn to forgive myself for the things I had done when I was drinking.
This came about while I made amends to people I had hurt, especially my husband. He loves me unconditionally, and therefore I was able to start to heal myself.
Why is it we can’t treat ourselves as we would a good friend?
Why do I think I can change myself with anger?
Why do we live with expectations that we must be nothing but perfect?
Why do we compare ourselves to others in a way that hurts only us?
I forgot that my gifts to offer the world, are my own. Your gifts are yours. Instead of hating myself for what gifts I don’t have, I am learning to love myself for what I can give.
I want to send everyone the message that in recovery you can find hope, joy, happiness, and love. For yourself, and for other people. You can learn to find your gifts, your talents, to give of yourself to the world. You can be strong and brave. You can have faith. You don’t have to be perfect anymore. You can be open to new experiences. You can, just as I can, and as all those who have gone before us did.
And when I am being angry at myself, I just put my hand on my heart and say, “You are loved, you are loving.”
Treat yourself kindly.
With soft, loving hands,
Wrap yourself in a blanket,
Cocoon yourself in.
May the sun shine above you,
May it warm from within,
Treat yourself kindly,
Be caring, forgive.
Hold yourself gently,
With compassion and faith,
Wrap yourself up in love,
With a healing embrace.
May grace be above you,
May grace be within,
Love yourself kindly,
On Day 1177,