"Jet Er Nok" ; I am Enough

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Dear Readers,

“It’s not the world that has changed, it’s me that has changed.” – Heard at a meeting

When I read all the sober bloggers, and think about my friends, family, and myself, I notice one of our underlying human themes is that we are not enough.
We cannot accept who are, always striving for more, wanting more, comparing ourselves, grasping.
I used to be so angry at myself for not being thin, for not being a better teacher, for not having more friends, for not being a better singer, for anything.
I used to not accept who I was.
There were times I hated myself.

It really is only since I have been in recovery for my drinking, going to AA, reading sober blogs, finding a good therapist, and finding a recovery group on Twitter, that I have slowly turned this around. I am learning about self-compassion. 

Recovery has allowed me to learn to be kind to myself. This is new to me. After all the hate and anger at myself and my body, I am learning to treat myself nicely. With love.
Recovery has allowed me to focus on what I have, not what I don’t have.
Being grateful is one of the most important lessons I have learned to help me connect with my inner loving spirit.
Recovery has meant I realize I am part of the human race, and all of us suffer. 
Every human in the whole world has felt rejected, hurt, or have made bad choices.
When I forget that, I get focused only on me, my problems, and poor me.

I am learning my negative thoughts are not true. I can observe them, but not believe them.
Being kind to myself means I can be kind to other people. Forgiving myself means I can forgive others. 

I Love This Guy!


The world continues on, with good and bad things. People continue to hurt each other, and be kind to each other. Nothing has changed.
But I have. 

I do not hate myself anymore.
I am not perfect, but human.
I am enough.

With Loving Thoughts,
On Day 1,138,

Wendy

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18 thoughts on “"Jet Er Nok" ; I am Enough”

  3. We are our own biggest critics. Others can look at us with love and admiration and we will still find something to criticize about ourselves, or answer negatively to a compliment. I'm trying so hard to work on this myself, and it sounds like you are doing a wonderful job of doing that too. Proud of you Wendy! ❤

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  9. I can relate closely to the feeling.I think when I am in my worst funks, it is exactly the head space I am in. It sucks, truly. I'm not sure when it started or where it came from. I have a supportive family and all that. It may just be one of those symptoms of the disease we share.

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  11. Lovely write-up, your smile says it all! I'm working on appreciating myself, warts and all, but also realizing it's okay to be\”just okay.\” Congrat on 1,138! Lia

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