"Jet Er Nok" ; I am Enough

Dear Readers,

“It’s not the world that has changed, it’s me that has changed.” – Heard at a meeting

When I read all the sober bloggers, and think about my friends, family, and myself, I notice one of our underlying human themes is that we are not enough.
We cannot accept who are, always striving for more, wanting more, comparing ourselves, grasping.
I used to be so angry at myself for not being thin, for not being a better teacher, for not having more friends, for not being a better singer, for anything.
I used to not accept who I was.
There were times I hated myself.

It really is only since I have been in recovery for my drinking, going to AA, reading sober blogs, finding a good therapist, and finding a recovery group on Twitter, that I have slowly turned this around. I am learning about self-compassion. 

Recovery has allowed me to learn to be kind to myself. This is new to me. After all the hate and anger at myself and my body, I am learning to treat myself nicely. With love.
Recovery has allowed me to focus on what I have, not what I don’t have.
Being grateful is one of the most important lessons I have learned to help me connect with my inner loving spirit.
Recovery has meant I realize I am part of the human race, and all of us suffer. 
Every human in the whole world has felt rejected, hurt, or have made bad choices.
When I forget that, I get focused only on me, my problems, and poor me.

I am learning my negative thoughts are not true. I can observe them, but not believe them.
Being kind to myself means I can be kind to other people. Forgiving myself means I can forgive others. 

I Love This Guy!

The world continues on, with good and bad things. People continue to hurt each other, and be kind to each other. Nothing has changed.
But I have. 

I do not hate myself anymore.
I am not perfect, but human.
I am enough.

With Loving Thoughts,
On Day 1,138,


18 thoughts on “"Jet Er Nok" ; I am Enough

  1. We are our own biggest critics. Others can look at us with love and admiration and we will still find something to criticize about ourselves, or answer negatively to a compliment. I'm trying so hard to work on this myself, and it sounds like you are doing a wonderful job of doing that too. Proud of you Wendy! ❤


  2. I can relate closely to the feeling.I think when I am in my worst funks, it is exactly the head space I am in. It sucks, truly. I'm not sure when it started or where it came from. I have a supportive family and all that. It may just be one of those symptoms of the disease we share.


  3. Lovely write-up, your smile says it all! I'm working on appreciating myself, warts and all, but also realizing it's okay to be\”just okay.\” Congrat on 1,138! Lia


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