Dear Readers,Some, but not all of you,Know I had a major operation on my ear.I had a cochlear implant.Now I have to wait for the processor.In order to hear in that ear.The recovery is hard.I have to learn to be patient.Very patient.This is NOT my nature.I want things perfect now.Which is one reason I ended … Continue reading Being Patient
Life How It Should Be
Dear Readers,It is an awakening,Really,To learn to live life,As I was meant to.With the joys,And the pains.Just as.I was remembering,What I was like,Who I was,Before I startedDrinking to cope.It's like being in childhood,Learning to play,Learning to explore.Playing in the sandbox.And it's beautiful.
Day 50
Dear Readers,During the times I was trying to Stop drinking,I sometimes counted days,And sometimes didn't.I don't really know which helps.I can't say.In any case,I AM counting right now.It's 50 days.My cravings (Evil Little Liar) are a whisper.(I am still alert to them, however).I was thinking,If something happened to myLoved One,I could take him to the hospital!I mean … Continue reading Day 50
What to Do? or Who is This Chick?
Dear Readers,I spent So much time drinking.Now, what to do?It wasn't easy at first.My whole identity was tied up inTeaching, stress, and drinking.Today,I am a yoga fanataic,A guitarist,A song writer,A reader,A writer,A golfer,A good friend,A coffee drinker, (lol)A walker,A lover of nature,A wife, (well, kind of…still don't cook).A sister, a daughter, an aunt.I am also a Seeker and … Continue reading What to Do? or Who is This Chick?
Better Off With or Without
Dear Readers,Yesterday I found a cool coffee shop, and two people smiled! One even mentioned my dress.I'm going back!!I was thinking of Ann Landers.(Dr. Phil had no words for me.)She often said, "Are you better off with him or without him?"So,Am I better off with drinking or without?Hangovers OR clear headed? (Most of the times anyway!)Half dead … Continue reading Better Off With or Without
Coffee Shops vs Bars
Dear Readers,Coffee shop people need to UNPLUG!(I'm writing this IN a coffee shop, mind you! LOL)A few people meet that know each other and are talking,But MOST others are on phones, laptops, etc.Everyone is studying or something.Now when I was drinking and going to bars,It was WAY more fun in this regard.I could make conversation with people … Continue reading Coffee Shops vs Bars
Looking Good, Feeling Strange
Dear Readers,Last night, I must say, I looked great! Cute little dress, little black boots, bling!Went to a dinner party with my dear, dear friends.So blessed to be loved by these beautiful people.Most of the time, I didn't even entertain the thought ofThey are drinking.Yet,As more bottles of wine came out,Sitting right in front of me,I … Continue reading Looking Good, Feeling Strange
No More Hiding (Being Honest)
Dear Readers,I did NOT sleep last night!Walked around the house crunchingChips.Found a trail of crumbs in the hallway,An empty bowl in the bathroom,The bag in the kitchen.When drinking took over my life,I was hiding (and drinking), Little bottles all over the house.The next dayI would scurry around looking for them.I'd find one in my purse,One in … Continue reading No More Hiding (Being Honest)
Spooky!
Dear Readers,It's a spooky kind of evening here,Wind and leaves blowing,A perfect Owl Moon night!My kind of night.Before my Friday nights were all about drinking,My Loved One and IWould go walking in our nature park,And listen and look for owls.We often saw and heard them.Now, I could feel sad that I Drank so many Friday nights away.My visions of … Continue reading Spooky!
My Dear Husband
Dear Readers,I heard this on Dr. Phil too!(Yikes! Does that tell you something?)"Don't put the people you love the mostOn the bottom of your list."Wow. That spoke to me loud and clear.When I was drinking,I put my Loved One,Last on my list.It was only the drink,That came first.It was only the bartender.It was only the … Continue reading My Dear Husband
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