Hello again from Minnesota! We got 8.5 inches of snow, and it’s very cold here today, but absolutely beautiful. Nothing major has happened since I last wrote. I have started so many posts, but I’m just not excited enough about anything to finish the posts. I seem to write about the same things over and over. But then again, isn’t that life? Everyday routine.
This time of year is a bit hard for me at times, because music is such a big part of people’s lives. As it used to be for me. Not just missing concerts, but making my own music, writing my own songs on the piano and guitar. How I loved that. Of course, as I have written before, cochlear implants make that impossible for me. (To listen to what I hear, click here.) Photo is from 2018, when I had my second implant turned on.
Hearing loss is very isolating. I keep writing about it because it affects me all the time, as it keeps me from fully understanding speech in many situations. In stores, I often have to ask Mr. UT what clerks are asking. By myself, I often get things mixed up.
So I cried a bit this morning, as I saw so many social media posts about playlists. It makes me feel lonely, left out. A lost connection.
I just refuse to get stuck in the bad feelings for long. I’ve been stuck there before, and I don’t like it. Not that they ever go away, but they are just one part of me. I am full of so many feelings!
Here is a partial list of some feelings I have on a given day: old, happy, sad, grateful, grumpy, lonely, satisfied, annoyed, loving, joyful, excited, and bored. Hmm. Looks like every other human being on the planet!
As always, the best way for me to get out of my negative feelings, is to get out of my head, move, and help someone else. Yesterday, while volunteering at an assisted living home, I was laughing with people, as I helped them with menus. Most people I help are 95 and older. Some are hard of hearing, and hard of seeing. One lady is both. I have to sit an inch away and yell. But we still laugh, and if these people can laugh while physically falling apart, then so can I.
I am at a coffee shop writing this, while Mr. UT is working on painting and fixing up our office! I am getting his last Christmas presents, books, as he already got some others from me earlier. Such a picky present person to buy for! LOL I will buy him a cookie, however, as he does love his bakery.
With a cookie for me too,
On Day 3010,