Fall colors are quickly fading,
Leaves blowing off the trees,
Darkness comes much sooner,
Bringing moments of unease.
Each sunlit day that passes,
Each blue sky day I hold,
I weave into a blanket,
To hug when comes the cold.
We had several brief showers of snow today, which was beautiful to see falling down. Big fat flakes, dusting up my flowers. It went quickly by, but it reminds me of what is to come. We must prepare for this. Mr. UT makes sure the snowblower is working by the middle of October, just in case. He puts in clean furnace filters. All our hats, mittens, parkas, and boots are ready and waiting.
It takes me time to accept what is to come, to be ready, but still live in the moment. I know Mr. UT and I will die one day. We have prepared as much as we can. We have a will, and Mr. UT has made a folder where he organized all the things I need to do if he should go first. We discussed if I should sell the house, or stay here for a while. There are things that will depend on how old I am, or how much help I will need.
I worry more about him, if I should go first, as he is happy being alone or just with me. Will he take care of himself? Will he get to the doctor for check ups, go visit friends? Will he eat more than a frozen pizza every night?
There will be no way to blunt the emotional pain that is to come with death. Nothing can prepare us for that. So that is why we are enjoying and living today. We create memories this way, even on our daily walks, taking nature photos. This is why we laugh, and hold hands. This is why I yell at Mr. UT to eat a piece of fruit! LOL
I was jumping around the house this morning when the snow started! There is something about a fresh coat of snow that really delights me. Mr. UT says, as long as he doesn’t have to shovel he likes it too!
With Mittens and Handwarmers,
On Day 2234,