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Last weekend I went to a small dinner party with our closest friends, and for the first time, I didn’t miss drinking!
Everyone else was drinking, and I didn’t care.
It didn’t bother me, and I didn’t get pouty!
It was so freeing!
At my last AA meeting we discussed “right living”.
Right living for me means I keep honest about drinking.
I had to be brutally honest with myself in order to quit drinking and look at how I was affecting not only my life, but the people I loved, especially Mr. UT.
It means telling on myself if I have a drinking thought.
Right Living means I get out of my own head and help someone else who might be struggling.
Sometimes that might be with drinking, but it might be with someone who is lonely.
The very best way for me to be less lonely is to help someone else.
Right living means, I take care of the things I need to.
It means something as simple as making my bed and doing the laundry.
It means managing my money.
Right living also means taking care of my needs, too.
It means I stop drinking too much coffee.
It means I do my exercise.
Now, this is not always easy for me, but it is getting better.
Volunteering is fun, but doing things around the house that need to be done, is not.
Taking care of myself is not easy.
I want to be lazy.
I want to sit around all day.
In recovery circles I hear the saying, “Do the next right thing”.
I like that.
It means taking responsibility for myself.
It means I give myself a gentle push to look at what I need to do to make my life and other people’s lives a little bit better.
With a Big Hug,
On Day 786,
PS – Mr. UT and I read the book Detroit Muscle, by Jeff Vande Zande, after reading about it on Walking in Sober Boots, blog. The main character, Robby, has a drug addiction. I was unsure if I could relate to a guy who loves cars. But, after reading it, I realized Robby could be anybody, a guy or a girl, with an addiction. His family holds secrets, as many families with addictions do.
As Robby tries to make amends, not everyone is ready to accept them. But the ending makes me hopeful that Robby will make it!