Dear Readers,It's finally partly sunny here, after many days of rain.Or maybe it's partly cloudy.I never can understand the difference between those two weather phrases.I think life is like that.It's part sun and part clouds.Sometimes it's raining, and sometimes it's not.Like the weather, it's unpredictable.I am working hard to challenge myself on my thinking that I am a victim … Continue reading Life Is Not Fair
Isolation, Loneliness, and Sobriety
Dear Readers,It is now proven that isolation hurts us. It makes us sick, depressed, and in some cases leads to death.Some people are isolated due to a number of issues, some of which can't be changed, such as health problems or being unable to find transportation to get out and about.Other people isolate themselves.There are times I isolate myself, especially … Continue reading Isolation, Loneliness, and Sobriety
Something Lost, Something Gained
My Cochlear ImplantDear Readers,Last November, I had a cochlear implant. I have had a hearing loss for most of my life, but over the last 10 years it declined very quickly.I still use a hearing aid in my other ear, although it doesn't help much.The implant helps me hear speech better, but it does not allow me … Continue reading Something Lost, Something Gained
Day 146 And Loving Kindness
Dear Readers,Self-compassion and my happy light got me to yoga today.I just said, "One step at a time."All I had to do was turn on the tea kettle. (SHOCK! TEA not coffee!!) LOLThen I said, "Now, all I have to do is turn on the shower."No yelling at myself, but a gentle step by step.I … Continue reading Day 146 And Loving Kindness
My First Sober Dream!
Dear Readers,Several nights ago, I had a dream about being sober. It was my first one ever! I thought it was cool.I don't remember all of it, but I was meeting a young woman who wanted to stop drinking. We were meeting in a fancy mall here in my city. When I got there, she … Continue reading My First Sober Dream!
A Lot Of NOISE
Dear Readers,I am still learning how "hear" with my new cochlear implant. Much of what I hear still sounds like noise! Music especially, is hard for me to understand. To re-train my brain, I have been listening to music non-stop and it slowly is making some sense to me. Really, that is the same way I am learning … Continue reading A Lot Of NOISE
No Better Gift
Dear Readers,There is only one, true gift to give myself, and that is being sober. Without that I really have nothing. It is only with this gift that I can find joy in life. I can go to yoga, go for a walk, and take pictures of the snow-covered park.I can sit in my beautiful city, … Continue reading No Better Gift
Dear Readers,People always say,"Take care of yourself".I know I need to,Exercise,Eat Right,Get enough sleep.But what else?To go deeper into self care means,Being creative,Using my talents,Prayer,Mediation.These are the thingsI forgot all about,When I was workingToo hard.Self care is vital toStaying sober.If I am neglecting My spirit,Drinking becomes The only way I try to take care.By taking the timeTo take … Continue reading Self Care