Five weeks after my hysterectomy, my stitches came loose, and my small intestines came out of my body!
I held them up and my husband drove me to emergency room, where I was fixed up within a short time. Stayed at the hospital for two nights, where I had a roommate with a drunk boyfriend. It was an interesting time, for sure!
There is always something!
Back to square one, sitting and waiting to heal.
Yet, I am feeling joyful because I can walk a little, smell flowers, write, and I am not in much pain! I can laugh, because I know, this is life. I surrender. My body is going to do whatever it wants to, and I can just go along for the ride!
While in the hospital, I found this poem, by Izumi Shikibu, in a small daily healing book:
Although the wind
blows terribly here,
the moonlight also leaks,
between the roof planks
of this ruined house.
There will always be storms in our lives. We will cry and grieve, yet somehow, we find the courage to carry on.
I find courage in words of others. I find hope and strength reading from their wisdom.
I have used this quote from Helen Keller before, but I cannot help but post it again:
Most people measure their happiness in terms of physical pleasure and material possession. Could they win some visible goal which they have set on the horizon, how happy they could be! Lacking this gift or circumstance, they would be miserable. If happiness is to be so measured, I who cannot hear or see have every reason to sit in a corner with folded hands and weep. If I am happy in spite of my deprivations, if my happiness is so deep that it is a faith, so thoughtful that it becomes a philosophy of life, – if in short, I am an optimist, my testimony to the creed of optimism is worth hearing.”
I am not always optimistic, just ask my husband, especially in the morning before a bit of coffee! (Which he is bringing me right now!)
I strive to be more joyful than complaining, because as much as misery loves company, I would rather sing flowers!
With Rainbows of Flowers,
And all my Intestines,
On Day 1737,
PS – For those who follow me, our kitchen is done!! Keith did a wonderful job! It brings in so much light!