|I was hungry!|
I find that using photos helps me write, for some reason.
They are another way I can express what I am trying to say.
Last week, Mr. UT and I went for a walk around one of our favorite parks, where there is a cool restaurant, so we stopped by, and sat outside to have a bite to eat.
I make Mr. UT take photos of us, which he will do, although sometimes reluctantly.
Our feelings and thoughts here were of fun, love and connection. When we go for walks, it gives us time to connect, and talk about life.
Now, we do squabble, but not nearly as often as we did when I was drinking.
And then some of our fights were about my drinking.
I am learning to breathe in and out, which gives me time to pause before I say something to hubs I might regret.
We have been married so long, that we have numbered our disagreements, i.e., how many suitcases I need for a weekend away is fight #10.
I am still learning.
I am learning how to be kinder, to myself and hubs.
I am learning how to listen.
I am learning how to not try to “fix” someone.
I am learning how to motivate myself.
I am learning how to support other people who are working on being sober.
I am learning how to detach with love, from other people and outcomes when needed.
I am learning so much.
I saw this quote on the Women for Sobriety newsletter, that is sent to me each week:
“Be patient with yourself. Self-growth is tender, it’s holy ground. There is no greater investment” -Steven Covey