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Over two years ago, not only did I stop drinking, I had a cochlear implant.
I had also just retired from teaching the year before.
Three big changes, all at once!
I hope you can read my post about my cochlear implant if you haven’t already,
It explains how much loss I experienced.
I lost the ability to “hear” music.
The post is called Something Lost, Something Gained.
Now that I can’t hear much in my other ear, I am glad I had the operation. Without it I couldn’t hear people talk, and that is very isolating.
My hearing got progressively worse as time went on, and it was one of the reasons I retired from teaching. I couldn’t hear the children, the fire alarm, or the phone.
I still struggle to hear, and have to use closed caption when watching television.
I miss a lot of conversation in movies or at plays.
I miss conversations in yoga, and in any big room.
However, I am ever so grateful for being able to hear what I can.
I can even hear birds now!
I have written before about grieving and loss. It is part of our human condition.
Some of my losses have been my co-workers, a place to belong, alcohol, and hearing and music.
I feel as if I am on the other side of my grieving for these losses.
They are still with me, but no longer so hurtful.
But this took time.
I had to cry, I had to be mad, I had to talk, I had to hug, but then I had to accept a new reality.
I had to move, and not stay stuck.
Many of us, in the early days of quitting drinking, write of the loss we feel.
It is a real loss, and not a loss to brush off.
For many of us, alcohol was our friend.
This was true for me.
But I have replaced the alcohol friend with real friends, and real experiences.
This helped me heal from the loss, and has made my life so much richer.
So I close with a quote I read from University of Washington:
With A Wish For Peace,
On Day 802,