It was raining, then snowing this morning, and then it turned SUNNY!
I am wearing my sandals now, because I just can’t stand being in boots any more.
This is pretty normal weather for us in the great mid-west.
I started my beginning drawing class last night.
All we did was to draw boxes, cones, and spheres.
Just right in the middle. (This is my opinion!)
It was fun, and I will keep going for awhile.
Now I need to practice.
One of my yoga teachers asked me how was sober life. She was happy for me.
I am surprised that my answer was not a cheery one. In fact, I just said “It’s okay.”
But as I was talking to her, I thought, well I am happy right now. So I told her that.
My Loved One is sure happy.
I sometimes still am a little sad I can’t drink anymore.
I don’t feel sorry for myself, and I am not having bad urges or anything.
It’s just sometimes I still wish I could have some wine at restaurants and dinner parties.
(Not that we go to many parties.)
Sometimes I think this is related to my depression. When I am down, my views on sobriety are down.
As more time passes, I know I will feel stronger.
I certainly feel much stronger than 7 months ago!
I went to one of my favorite AA meetings this week, and I felt welcomed home.
I understand that these connections are very important to me, both to help me stay sober, see good role models, and just to make a human connection.
We celebrated a man who was sober 25 years.
He is a very cool guy, who is a great help to newbies.
I noticed the people who have been sober a long time seem much more content in life.
They have a strong spiritual foundation.
I do miss my Women for Sobriety friends, and might see if I can get to that meeting next week. They have a program that is very life-affirming.
Finally, as I had said before, I had a cochlear implant put in last fall.
The cool thing is, I can hear birds now. I haven’t heard the little chirps for years!
They are noisy, and I love it!
I wish you all a wonderful weekend!